That’s what my sister told me after my last blog post. Followed by an admission of the ‘pot and the kettle thing’. And she’s right. I know she’s right. And I told her she’s right. I think she thought I was going to fight her on it when I asked “About?”. I asked because I was curious if it was in general or specific. It’s general. And again, she’s right.
I could sit here and write all the possible reasons for thinking too much and basically self analyze, but that would be boring to me. I have looked at it. And think I know at least some of the reasons. And that’s enough because, I’m aware of them and I’m aware that I won’t grow and move forward if I keep doing it. If I keep overthinking in a way that keeps me from getting stuff done. Not everything has to be perfect, not everything is going to be perfect and that’s ok. Because, I am human. And I’ve come to grasp that even those people, who we think are amazing and have great lives, a lot of the time there really is just another human behind that facade with dirty dishes that need taking care of, favorite food weaknesses, the same ‘saving that for something special’ quirk, and their own self doubts, and so much more.
We live in a world where we are bombarded with what to do and what not to do to be correct in how we live. I mean how many things on the socials have you seen that say something like ‘you’re doing X all wrong’ or if you want to do X you “HAVE TO” do this. And the ones I like the least, things a woman or person over a particular age should or shouldn’t do, or should or shouldn’t wear. OMG. Please! So it’s easy to overthink because of this. Because, what if you’re misunderstood and someone gets upset, or what if you do something that puts off vibes that you didn’t intend. As just a couple of examples. So yeah, it becomes easy to think too much about stuff.
I even think too much about what piece of art I want to do. Mostly it’s about if I want to paint that particular pose because of how much detail it might have or how challenging it looks. Sometimes I worry that if I do a painting of a particular subject that I really want to paint and then share it, then people will think that that’s what I do. Or if I try a certain medium or technique. I’m afraid someone will say something like, ‘so you’re a X artist now’. Or ‘so now you’re doing these types of paintings’. And then I’ll have to justify why I’m doing that piece and if I think I might do more or not. What if I just wanted to try it, and show off that I tried it.
So yeah. I definitely think too much about some things and it does get in the way. I’m going to see if I can break the habit and just start going with things a little more. And part of that is going to be trying not to cover everything in every post. Let’s see how that goes, shall we?
Cheers!